one ay em
I am tired and alone, sitting here at one a.m. The distant sounds of teenagers across the street does little to cheer me. I wish to be in bed with you, dreaming, and asleep, but more time will have to pass. You claim to have taken the steps neccesary to erase me from your life. I believe you, though it hurts like nothing else. I must tread carefully now through your intricate, unacknowledged web of rules. I feel erased already.
Invisible.
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I’m going to assume it’s the last bit that leads to confusion for it seems to me that the beginning of the piece is quite straightforward.
I must tread carefully now through your intricate, unacknowledged web of rules. I feel erased already.
Think of a spiders web, delicate and invisible. Think on what happens to the fly who is ensnared.
Saying that I feel erased already is revealing that I feel I am not nimble enough in my mind to survive. It doesn’t matter what I say or what I do, the spider will have me. Hence – invisibility. I am here, but I am innefectual. I will be erased though it is what I fear most.