Author: foxtongue

The Free Thinkers Social went all night until morning. It was lovely fun and certainly amusing.  When I arrived, instead of bothering with such things as doors, it made far more sense to just lcimb the balcony, so I did to a chorus of “Jhayne!!” from inside. I was surprised. I hadn’t expected to know anyone, but Alex and Nereid were there as well as Derrick. After Wag the Dog, people started leaving, but I’ve really missed such things. As everyone wafted away into the dawn, Adrian and I caught a ride with Evan(?) which then got sidetracked into playing Scrabble as the sun came up at the top of a hill in a National Park. Adrian won by a single point, the smiling shining devil he. Breakfast was suggested and in our futile quest to find somewhere to go, we came upon a moth of gray & violet doom. It was very very angry and at least two inches wingspan. I now understand why some people are frightened of such flufy harmless things.

After a short rest, we were awoken by Michelles welcome surprise arrival. The heat was destructive to soul and body. Thankfully, Ruth had invited us swimming in the evening and so off we went. *swim swim* There were pool noodles, and new people. *splash*

I would be writing with a bit more eloquence, but afterwards we played Munchkin at Denny’s and I stupidly ordered food, so now I’m not doing too well.

Spent my last night with . He’s discovered a delicious anime called The Millenium Actress. We can’t think as to why we’ve never heard of it before. I strongly urge everyone to find it. It’s a rare bit of  imaginative phantasmagorical romance.

I think I need to work on my vocabulary a bit. Bring it down a wee bit, perhaps. The Zim Marathon has reduced many of us to funny voices and random outpourings of TacoDoom, but to use a word like phantasmagorical without thinking about it? That’s a bit much. Tonight is the free-thinkers party hosted by . That should likely help.  The Lord    calls them The Raving Atheists. I don’t know what I’m walking into, but I’m sure it will be fun. Sweet arguing among relative intellignce about boys and taste undestined. Should be nice.

Found out today as well that my hopeful job at Storyeum allows dyed hair as long as it’s neat and not anything seriously flamboyant. This news brings me joy. I’m looking forward to getting the job so as to I almost wish I had something to pray to.

Hallo the World. Jeff has joined us as the . Let’s all go pressure him to make art.

Virgin birth? Well – if she was Mary the Slut, who would have believed her? No more breaking out the turkey basters girls! A technique has been found that will cause an egg to start creating cells without a sperm. ‘Course, in this case, scientists are pretty certain that the process cannot produce a mammal baby, though something similar has been found to work on mice. Bonus: a child without two gentic donors = ??. Hmmm. Some insects and some lizards manage it, soooo – trashy monster movies anyone? I’m all for genetic manipulation. I don’t want to have a child until it could have a tail or feathery wings, but I must say I’m slightly discomfited by the thought of creating worker drone humans. There’s something slightly soulless in cloning human bees.

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Job interview in appoximately an hour. I’m unsure what to wear as I don’t know the impression I’m to be giving. Is it for theatre? Is it a clerical? It’s completely up in the air. I could end up tech…

I am killing again.  Dreaming of memories. I woke very  suddenly yesterday in the dead of night. I had been whimpering in my sleep and Adrian doesn’t know me very well. I don’t know how long I was asleep, but it was long enough. I had to fight my urge to hurt him. Jolting adrenalin turning my hands into pain and claw. I suppose I feel the air from the moist earth. Wanting to be a kid again without the pain of the fosterhome twisting me into shapes made of broken wire to bind my wrists.

It is springtime again.

God answers for everyone – endless excuses
Not habit for anyone ’cause I’m trying to break your click track heart
Seen a vision of perfect grace – airbrushed and lifeless
All contempt and aftertaste, it’s like I’m waiting for the scars to heal

So it turns out that   and I have been dating eachother through circuitous means.

Why are we not surprised.

I killed Adrian. He’s lying in the bed puddledead asleep. I decided to show him how to give a massage as I was tired of my shoulders feeling cheated or brutalized.

I win.

Today was work again, and a shifting of plans. I suddenly realized this afternoon that staying the night at James’, no matter how desirable the films and company, when there is a job interview the next day, it isn’t the wisest course of action. Not that I’ve been known for my wisdom for the past few years, but I feel it coming back to me. My reading of the human pages is returning, but slowly. Not quick enough though, it seems. It seems, and seems is all I’ll say, that I am collecting again.

I had a horrible mental image this week. Stalking down the middle of a street, drawing from those following me. Lightning gathering at my hands and calling thunder from the sky. Forks of power built of thier belief in me. My voice could crack stone, because this crowd behind me thought they loved.

I laughed out loud at my minds painful image and at how true some of it was. That truth was painful – especially rememberance of looking back on that very thing not months before and realizing that all the gardens hidden secrets had turned from diamonds to dust from lack of contact. The words and confidences need to be buffed by presence, else they fade and dissolve. Meaningless over the passage of time.

I wonder if I asked, would Jeff paint for me before he left.

Stalin vs. Hitler The Authorized Annotated Translation The comics © 2000 by Alexey Lipatov. Please don’t steal too hard. It upsets the artist.

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The children on the chat are roleplaying a vaguely S&M fantasy and there’s nothing I can do about it. No-one’s breaking the rules in talkng about leather and whips and yes master and do I have permission mistress, but it’s sort of creeping me out a wee bit.

Actually – it’s a bit more than vaguely.