THEY HAVE SUNLIGHT!!!

I made it to Seattle. Someone even paid for my ticket on the promise that I go to some masquerade party with them and their ridiculously hot girlfriend on Friday. Somehow, just somehow, I couldn’t say no. Oddly.

I’m staying downtown, within a block of the Space Needle. I really like it here. There’s clothes to return this week, a corsetiere acquaintance to visit, and friends and extended chosen-family to have tea with. Joseph and I went to a park earlier up on Capital Hill with some fruit cobble and there were pretty naked people laughing and splashing in the water fountain, drunk from St. Paddy’s day, and delightedly giggling like they had just invented joy. (Once I’m done this, we’re going to watch American Astronaut).

Tomorrow is Mike’s gig with Buckethead, which should prove to be wicked and by wicked, I mean delightful.

” I don’t want you to be disappointed”


66-year-old pianist Yosuke Yamashita, via Japan Today

A letter marked in chalk, the name dusty from neglect, the sound of sheets wrinkled September in my bed. The words are statements, the antithesis of lyrics. The paper is silent, lifeless except in memories that supply the absent voice. Well, I suppose that’s it then. Every time the phone rang, I almost wondered, but I couldn’t live like that – hopes hovering pointlessly over the receiver as my hand grasped and woke up my voice from where it had been hiding in the time it takes to light one cigarette, the time it takes to say hello.

One signal, a thread of blueprint, I wanted a reprieve, but that’s not what I received.

Rechargable Biologically Based Battery

It was meant to be Ray’s Mariachi Madness birthday party tonight, except that he came down sick. Some of us went through with the plans anyway, as they were a little too weird to casually pass up. The venue, up on third, proved to be a hole-in-the-wall school of some sort, split between Spanish and music classes, decorated in what I can only label Tijuana Church Basement flea market.

It was a one room affair, similar to a community theater show you might find in a film, complete with low, vaguely unflattering lighting, walls awkwardly studded with various traditional decorations, and streamers that may have been left over from someone’s Mexicana wedding. The stage was a raised area with banisters, like an ornamental bridge over a very tiny stream, but instead of a stream, there was a row of potted plants. Most of the attendees spoke rapid Spanish, as did the host of the evening, leaving our friend Mishka, the violinist, looking like a deer in the headlights. A deer in a jacket three sizes too big and a ridiculous hat, mind, but a deer nonetheless.

Not that we were doing much better. At one point, I turned to Wayne and mouthed, “what have we gotten ourselves into?” He replied, “hell if I know, but it’s awesome.” Not only was there Mariachioake, which is exactly what it sounds like, there was also a Mariachi Idol contest that involved volunteers from the audience getting up and howling, and, for one song, the band was led by a five year old boy who sang at the top of his lungs at the prompting of his pregnant mother in the back who guided him through the lyrics with hand signals.

It was like culture shock, but in our own back-yard. If the backwards dancing midget from Twin Peaks had stepped from the audience and taken the mic at any point, I would not even blinked. Staying until the end of the show already felt like suspension of disbelief.

I highly recommend giving it a try. If nothing else, the food is delicious and the beer very, very cheap. Friday nights at 150 e3rd ave, just off Main st. Music starts at 9 o’clock, goes until approximately midnight.

another day where I haven’t left the house yet

This makes me happy.

A city dressed in shadows, constant cloud. It was nice to be out of it, alive under sunlight, meeting new people, a trick I have all but lost in Vancouver. Ran out of people, somehow, ran out of patience. Things, moments, miniature adventures dressed like tedious hotel rooms, anonymous, sterile with interstitial furniture.

Getting away was good for me. I’ve come back from Seattle with e-mail addresses and stories of dancing all night, interesting possibilities, and more than one bit of revelation. (Apparently someone’s hard-wired into my system. This would bother me, except that at least I’m aware of it.)

Friday night was a failed attempt to see the laser graffiti up from San Francisco, (they couldn’t get it to work, so after having us stand in the rain for 45 minutes, they gave up, packed up, and left), and Duncan’s yearly party, aka the sort of evening that goes late. I didn’t get home until almost three, at which point my friend Dan came over to crash the night rather than going all the way home to Deep Cove after working downtown, so three turned into four which turned into my alarm, the snooze button, the alarm, then the realization that I was going to be late unless the taxi managed to get me downtown in under eight minutes. A brilliant start.

Once I was on the bus, everything was easier. No one even asked for a ticket. The border snuffled a little at my silly hat, but smiled wryly at my jokes and let me go, and I was picked up immediately when I arrived by a young man with wonderful eyes who canceled out all possible nervousness intelligent people might have had about getting into a strangers car. (I am discounting myself from this group, we all know I get into strangers cars far more than my mother would like). Ten points all across the board. The party itself proved to be a little much at first, as there seemed to be a table-top game being played in every room, but I met some of Silva’s friends outside and stood in the sun long enough that the currents of the house had time enough to shuffle some people out who weren’t obsessively rolling dice.

It was comfortable, settling in, and I’m sorry I didn’t get more contact info for some of the people I spent time with. One girl in particular, short black hair, eyes like jewelry, Erica? She braided my hair into thin whips that fell out over the course of the evening. I didn’t even catch when she was gone the same way I’m not sure when the sun went down.

Eventually the games wound down and the bid to go dancing began in earnest until Sebastien Jon Karl, the man with many names, his friend Robin, and Dan, our host, piled into the car to drive downtown to a place called Noc Noc. Red, black, a giant nailed to the wall above the bar, arms spread, lights in its eyes. I laughed as I ditched my coat, glad at the scurrilous decor, already moving to the music as I rolled ear-plugs out of napkins at the bar.

I hate that Vancouver doesn’t have any all-night dance clubs. I used to practically live in such places, bruised feet every morning, sore muscles at least twice a week, so Noc Noc was perfect, minus the early crowding. (Until the floor, mostly dominated by people who’d been drinking, maybe too much, thinned as the hours went by, I continually felt like killing people who didn’t give me space to properly move.) We lost Robin somewhere around four in the morning, but adopted Steele, a here-to-actually-dance with an uncanny resemblance to a 20-something Antony, and kept going until dawn. It would have been longer, but the prospect of soaking in a hot tub as the sun came up was too nice to pass up. When the sky started showing blue, we threw ourselves out of the club, and drove back to Dan’s house around seven, deciding not to get out of the water until it was officially tomorrow. And, with the fogged lucidity that only the blind-tired can have, that’s what we did.

Breakfast was next, ridiculously huge portions at an odd diner papered with an anarchistic riot of crayon illustrations. From what I could see, the surreal drawings had been created by every skill-level possible. There were scrawls that were barely recognizable as possibly maybe it’s a tree if you squint to hyper-detailed anatomy studies of cthuloid anime characters who may or may not have been sodomizing a smurf underneath a wiccan symbol. (My favourite was a purple realist cartoon of a stripe-tailed lemur wearing a yarmulke and holding a menorah with the words JEWISH LEMUR at the top.) Highly entertaining. As I’m told it’s a 24 hour diner, I’m almost certain to be back there this week. Maybe I’ll get a picture.

We met with Kris there, which was great, and when Sebastian and Steele begged out to go sleep and get boots fixed, she came back to Dan’s house to hang out a bit, meet the cats, and drink some tea before driving home. It made me smile when I found some blurry pictures of us together on my camera during the bus-ride back to Vancouver.

Dan made sure I got to see Gasworks park, finally, before I had to go, for which I’m thankful. That park is some sort of fairy-tale, like the model ruins of an abandoned Wizard of Oz city. It hit home, standing there, why so many artists come out of Seattle, a sense I’d only lived in the edges of before. Suddenly I felt a biting urge to move there, escape Vancouver like a bad relationship to go stay with the neighbor, no matter the guns and dirty politics. Impossible, as of yet, but a new thought. A nice one.

I’m going back for Mike’s gig on Tuesday, though no plans have formalized yet. I don’t know when I’m going or how long I’ll stay.

willing to bet this will be fascinating

The Linear Animal
Saturday, March 15, 2008, 8:00 p.m.

Western Front (303 East 8th Avenue, Vancouver)
Tickets $15 / $10 Students and WF Members

Digital media meets the 19th century tradition of paper theatre in this interdisciplinary performance work. A meditation on home and exile, and on the nature of storytelling, sweeping an arc that ranges from Bavaria across the New World and to the bottom of the deep blue sea…

Is it a love story?
Is it Heideggerian ontology?
Or is it just a bunch of cardboard cutouts?

Putting a modern spin on an antique form of household entertainment, The Linear Animal utilizes recent technologies to create a one-of-a-kind performance. Through live narrated voice, live video, and an improvised score of recorded sounds, the story unfolds alongside a children’s train set that circles in front of the audience, carrying on it the cut-out characters of the story. The narrative behind The Linear Animal is one of history, family, adolescence, love and memories; but most of all it is a story that explores different views on the often conflicting and perplexing idea of “home.”

The text of The Linear Animal was written by Andreas Kahre; an interdisciplinary artist, designer, writer and musician who has been involved in the creation of more than a hundred projects with theatre, dance, and music ensembles across Canada. His collaborators for The Linear Animal are internationally recognized media artist, composer-performer and software developer Kenneth Newby, and media and visual artist Aleksandra Dulic. Kenneth and Aleksandra are both members of the Computational Poetics Group at Simon Fraser University, where they specialize in the development of intelligent performance instruments and the creation of new works that combine live animation and music techniques for live performance. David Garfinkle narrates, and Stefan Smulovitz joins the ensemble as a special guest improviser on viola.

the cheapest form of time travel

I found a stranger dancing at Noc Noc, an all-night club I went to in Seattle, who was a striking image of my last lover, but fifteen years younger. I had him hold me and kiss me on the crown of my skull, just so I could close my eyes and pretend I was still home.

Some times I feel like I am sinking into an alternative to my own life.

I don’t think the kids will mind.