candy cane molasses


fine to me
Originally uploaded by foxtongue2.

It’s a hairclip, unremarkable but for its size. It’s tiny, barely fitting between two fingertips, and stuccoed with green sparkles which have worn off the edges. I wore it on a chain around my neck when I went to Toronto until I met Joseph, then he would clip it into his mass of hair and it would hide, occasionally flashing as a startling spark of green in the deep black red.

As a thing, it is uninteresting, as a history, it has more more personal value. I found it in the washroom of the Commodore, left behind by some random female. I picked it up and held it to my eyes after the show, smiling at myself in the mirror. I was dressed in peasant purple and my hair I don’t remember. It might have been plum or it might have been gold, but it was damp, I remember that much. I had danced to the point of collapse to the opening band, Velvet. Someone had noticed. “Jhayne, we’re heading out.”

I stepped out into the murky ballroom and a bouncer tried to shoo me out, but he was stopped by the group of people waiting. “She’s one of us, thank you.”

I laughed as one of them held up my shoes, “You should really put these on, little girl, it’s not safe out there.” and as I took them from him, he reached out and plucked the green from my fingers. “What have you found?”

It was Dick Dale.

He turned it over with magicians grace, the colour winking between his warped fingers like a cheap special effect, and took out one of his guitar picks. “I signed this, want to trade?” I said no, and he took my head in hand and carefully placed the clip in my hair.

bandwagon ahoy

Ryan has started a meme. I am continuing it with one of my favourite songs. Welcome to BadTimes by Laika.

instructions upon receiving badtimes e-mail

  • delete immediately without reading

    results of reading

  • re-written hard disk
  • disks close to computer become scrambled
  • refrigerator coolness setting recalibrated
    result: melted ice-cream
  • credit cards demagnetized
  • VCR tracking ruined
  • subspace field harmonics render compact disks unreadable
  • ex relationship obtains current phone-number
  • antifreeze applied to fish-tank
  • all beer emptied
  • socks left on table (coffee) when company expected
  • dead kitten in suit (good) pocket (back)
  • car keys hidden
    time: late for work
  • infatuation with a penguin (bird)
  • nightmares about midgets (circus)
  • sugar applied to gas-tank
  • eyebrows shaved off
    time: while it dates current boy/girlfriend without your knowledge

    time: while billing entertainment (dinner, hotel) on your VISA card
  • grandmother seduced
    beyond the grave –> accessible
  • car moved randomly
    where: in parking lots
  • dog kicked
  • messages (libidinous) left on voice mail in your voice
    owner: boss

  • Dutch Elm Disease
  • toilet seat left up
  • methamphetamines made in bathtub
  • bacon left cooking on stove
    time: when out chasing teenagers with your snowblower (new)

    description

  • insidious
  • subtle
  • dangerous
  • terrifying to behold
  • a rather interesting shade of mauve
  • Nicholas sez that I’ve always been set to go off in some new direction & I haven’t just done it yet

    Warren’s writing ficlets again and dinosaur flesh has been found. I suppose these make up for my utter lack of chocolate eggs. That and holy hells, this, (albeit brilliant), thread went critical overnight. When I first peeked, there were a total of three comments. (irrh I used yours).

    I think, “this is fine.” and I laugh a little at my arrogant idiocy. I wanted candles last night and maybe I’ll want them tonight too, but the urge is slipping away like silk I can’t hold onto, like a balloon drifting upward. There’s more than one item a girl can scatter around the house. I’d take a picture, but my camera is out of batteries. How would I hold it, any way, to show the bruises that aren’t there anymore? What angle of temptation possible exists? I can’t explain the clench of muscle that tears me sweetly with a picture. I don’t know how.

    Tonight dancing in a pool of black eyeliner, spiky bracelets, and fishnet stockings, I’m going to look a little out of place. Dress up masquerade like as not, a line-up for the bar and bloodshots cheap mixed mash-up with candy coloured ravenettes. Gravers with black shirts over orange pants. Trigger happy on the floor, hands in the air and obvious shifts in beat and harmony. I’m not expecting anything, not even a good time.

    reality shift, wow

    from quantz:

    A Group of Workers Harvesting Tea, ca. 1907-1915.

    “This exhibit, The Empire That Was Russia, has been a favourite of mine for a while now. I come back and look at it once in a while.

    Sergei Mikhailovich Prokudin-Gorskii was a photographer in Russia at the turn of the last century. He developed a technique wherein he took three pictures of a scene – each with a red, green, and blue filter – and used projectors to display what were, in effect, colour photographs, before the technology of colour film had actually been developed. In his day, they didn’t look so hot because it was hard to get the projectors lined up. But today, we (ie: the Library of Congress) has scanned them and combined them digitally, and the results are AMAZING. You should all look at those pictures: it’s like seeing an alternate universe or something. I can’t recommend them enough.”

    This picture, Peasant Girls, was taken in 1909.

    and this, View of the Monastery from the Solarium, 1910.

    I am rather in awe at how modern these look while at the same time, so antique. The clothes are a give away, as are the manner of industry. I think these are precious. I seriously endorse giving this page a thorough look.

    more beneath the cut

    carving the arch above your eye with my tongue, is all, touching the lobe of your ear with my lips


    hello and good evening
    Originally uploaded by foxtongue2.

    It’s raining and two in the morning. I walked Ethan to the skytrain double pace march then wandered softly into the warm night. Interaction with satisfaction and feeling alone. My mind catalogues who I could visit downtown, it’s a short list these days, but a sweet one to ponder. The seawall is lit but barely in some places and lies in darkness if you know where to look. I didn’t stop walking but turned when I remembered my bicycle at Tyler‘s. Travel simpler on wheels and pedal power. Past the miniskirt hookers on their way to a penthouse party, (the disco lights were visible from the water), I stall, colour caught, a flower under a bench shrouded by the plush dark. I’m not sure how I saw it, but it’s there and I pick it up, stiff green stem and pale pastel pink. Eostre colours, goddess blessed. Behind me the scrape of another human, but I ignore them. I feel a match for predators tonight, the feet are likely a saturday night phenomenon. My bike has a flat tire after I unlock it, so I put it back and blow a kiss to the window. Nevermind, a thought discard, easier than litter to throw away, it’s only more night walking, drenched in moist air. My flower was a wand, shredding the night before me in night-time Strathcona, old wooden houses and interesting lights. A neighborhood of artists, the oldest in the city. There are hidden gardens here, I’ve seen them. I’ve sat in them at night with musicians from San Fransisco and talked about style, how I’ll grow into having it, how they wear what the company bought for them, what Burroughs was like to work with. Disposable Heroes in a strange city but under the spell of good people and jazz. That house is by a corner, but the challkboard is gone from the door. No more fridge magnet letters to say hello with, to post poetry with piece by piece. I suppose they, whoever they were, have moved.

    The tenements before the train tracks are scary viewed at night. In the daytime, it’s impossible to see how small they are, how it’s like slave galley housing, how the church looks fenced off in a plot so tiny as to take down the tower any day now because it’s displacing too much air. Two stories, three stories, cardboard closet box apartments lit so brightly with orange sodium as to trick the eyes into believing in daylight. Over the tracks are a pathway, a crosshatch industrial tube of a cage. The metal catches at my shoes. It feels sticky and releases the soles with a careful tiny sound of rubber. On that I danced, swooping over the empty tracks hoping to catch the screaming sound of a keening unhappy train. Howl sadness dying in the rain. I stopped, suddenly, on the other side and a block later there were people on a porch. Good friends, it looked like, perhaps they’d had a party and they were the only ones left. Think a candle and one chair, invariably with a girl in, everyone else on the steep stairs. Wine. There were others coming from inside as I passed and one of them, emerging from the black doorway said “Good evening” and I replied, “Good evening,” back while holding the flower to my cheek. I resolved to buy them ice-cream ten steps later, around safely the corner and another block to the gas station.

    When I returned, they had arranged themselves comfortably on the front of the house and were smiling confused when I brought them my gift. “Thank you for being kind,” I said, “This will seem odd, but I bought you ice-cream. I was getting some anyway. I do hope you like chocolate.” They didn’t ask me to stay. I don’t think they knew how but unexpectedly I felt very empty, so I didn’t do it for them. Finessing such a thing is simple, intruding without intruding is an easy skill to me. They’re talking about me now, I’m certain, and if I’m lucky, they will recognize me on the street some day, (I would never recognize them), but tonight I did not feel like abruptly becoming fascinating, inserting myself into lives, no matter how little effort would be involved. I feel instead like I want candlelight and my lover with me. I want the window open to let the cold air in and wet body heat to warm us in spite of it.

    Larry called today from the Interstate on his way home from MomoCon, which was an unexpected joy in spite of his driving with a broken arm on the phone in the dark, (which leads me to worry slightly). I only regret that I was dulled from my work and distracted by the children’s incessant Second Coming chatter. His sound is lighter than I expected, but I’ve his cadence now, and the flavour of his vocabulary. I’m sure, like with whimsical Dee, it will infect everything of his that I read and take part in. It’s a silly impulse, but I was surprised at myself for not recognizing his voice.