I started this in a conversation to Matthew but it just kept going

Night Moves has just shown up on the playlist, crashing into me like every year since I was six, when I first saw American Pop in the Drive In. My dad sat in the front seat of the truck we lived in, I think my mum had fallen asleep in the back. We shared a bag of sour candy and he explained where all the music came from, instilling a worship of sound into me one scene at a time. It was dark summertime somewhere in the middle of ontario, the smell of fields coming in through the windows with the sound pouring loudly from thirty car windows, that guitar just flowing in, little chords glittering. I remember women singing on the stereo and people singing along. All of it classic and perfect and so close to meaning something.

We weren’t in love, oh no, far from it
We weren’t searchin’ for some pie in the sky summit
We were just young and restless and bored
Livin’ by the sword
And we’d steal away every chance we could
To the backroom, to the alley or the trusty woods
I used her, she used me
But neither one cared
We were gettin’ our share
Workin’ on our night moves
Tryin’ to lose the awkward teenage blues
Workin’ on our night moves
And it was summertime

Classic rock now, memory entwined on the radio burning into me. It was hard to go downtown with blonde hair, knowing my father lives there somewhere. It’s not him I’m scared of, it’s more the thought of him, the idea of the person. My insane father, violent and strong with years. The address I created to send him letters has been closed. I left it alone for too long. I don’t know if he’s written anything more past what I posted. It’s amazing where this song puts me, how I feel so happy and heavy and wanting all at the same time. The seats were brown, like the molded plastic that hinged over the engine. It was a white panel truck, two tons. In the back was a fold out couch and boxes of music gear, black with silver clasps. When they were driving I would play in the back or sit on the ledge connecting the cab to the back. I was tiny and safe. Every time we got pulled over on the highway, I would have to hide because there were only two seatbelts. I would slide myself inside the cushions and cover myself with an old green jungleprint blanket. There’s pictures of me wrapped in it as a baby. My father had it around his arms the night he smashed the bedroom window into our faces. The night all my training kicked in and I grabbed my baby brother Robin and ran into my room, barricading the door with my chest of drawers. I remember brushing glass out of our hair and hearing my mother crying.

The only charactor in American Pop I ever really felt with, ever really understood was the mad songwriter. Sometimes I almost feel like I know why.

Richard McDowell summed it up nicely. He surprised an answer out of me. Usually I tell people that I have no father, but instead he looked at me and asked, “How long since he fell off the world?”

Another reason to travel, part infinity plus six

found in urban_decay:

Justo Gallego Martínez is building his very own Cathedral in Mejorada del Campo near Madrid, Spain. This is no “model” cathedral and he is neither a qualified architect, nor engineer, nor bricklayer — he is a farmer. “The plans have only ever existed in my head” and have evolved over time in response to opportunity and inspiration. Nor does he have formal planning permission from the authorities of Mejorada del Campo — the town in which it is located (20 km from Madrid under the flight-path to the Barajas airport)….

…He has financed his work by rent from some inherited farmland — some of which he has already sold. Donations from supporters and visitors are welcomed. Most of the construction materials used are recycled (buckets, pieces of wood, plastic tubes, etc) — occasionally obtained from business and construction companies with excess materials for a job. Progress on the cathedral is therefore visibly marked by the nature and quality of materials that he acquires in this way. The columns are moulded using old petrol drums, the window arches carry the marks of the tires they were moulded in and bicycle wheels have been used as pulleys. Strength is ensured by using extra quantities of cement. There has as yet been little time for finishing surfaces. The rose window is without glass — but there is a long mosaic staircase leading to the main entrance.

also on citynoise: Lascaux in the subway

every last place holds the language, but we in Canada tend to disagree with blasted prejudice

as found on boingboing:

Friday, March 4, 2005
Canadian politico tears Condi Rice a new one
“Former Canadian Minister of Foreign Affairs and UN bigshot Lloyd Axeworthy published this scathing open letter to Condi Rice.”

I know it seems improbable to your divinely guided master in the White House that mere mortals might disagree with participating in a missile-defence system that has failed in its last three tests, even though the tests themselves were carefully rigged to show results.

But, gosh, we folks above the 49th parallel are somewhat cautious types who can’t quite see laying down billions of dollars in a three-dud poker game.

As our erstwhile Prairie-born and bred (and therefore prudent) finance minister pointed out in presenting his recent budget, we’ve had eight years of balanced or surplus financial accounts. If we’re going to spend money, Mr. Goodale added, it will be on day-care and health programs, and even on more foreign aid and improved defence.

Sure, that doesn’t match the gargantuan, multi-billion-dollar deficits that your government blithely runs up fighting a “liberation war” in Iraq, laying out more than half of all weapons expenditures in the world, and giving massive tax breaks to the top one per cent of your population while cutting food programs for poor children.

LINK

Kyles Wings Have Arrived, thank you Alastair, here.


dawn
Originally uploaded by Foxtongue.

The day broke when she kissed me, I could see the shattered pieces scattered on the floor. Splintered history, shards of world war two crunching underneath my feet as I stepped past her to look outside. Her hands on her hips was a moment of beauty, perfect posed entropy. I was slowing, turning to look at her in slower motion that I thought I was capable of. Wind came from the kitchen, moving her hair into the air like curving snakes of gold. She spoke and I listened, but I can’t tell you anything she said. It was like I was drunk, it was like she was god. The floor was tilting, throwing me off my feet onto my knees, an appropriate place for begging. She insinuated her way to hands on my head, her fingers full of thorns, stripping my flesh away, out of her way. She stroked my hair, suddenly pulling me up to her, cradling me in her arms as if I might disappear. Confusion reigned, motionless inside my body. I thought of secrets, of drugs, of the patterns which suddenly swirled complex across her skin.

Alright, food is happening now. Shaking I can deal with, but the taste of losing conciousness is an entirely different story… The post office will wait.