{"id":3591,"date":"2011-04-24T20:57:00","date_gmt":"2011-04-24T20:57:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/foxtongue.com\/dreampepper\/2011\/04\/24\/my-life-as-a-misery-ghost\/"},"modified":"2011-04-24T20:57:00","modified_gmt":"2011-04-24T20:57:00","slug":"my-life-as-a-misery-ghost","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/foxtongue.com\/dreampepper\/2011\/04\/24\/my-life-as-a-misery-ghost\/","title":{"rendered":"my life as a misery ghost"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><center><a href=\"http:\/\/www.youtube.com\/watch?v=ikjwby0AVvI\">Portal 2: Exile Vilify, a hidden song by The National<\/a><\/center><br \/>\nMonday: It was just after midnight when he opened the door. In the interest of brevity, I will leave out the next three hours, excepting my desire to be wanted, kicked in like a knife, a piercing pain that has yet to fade. Suffice to say, A. has gone away. Like in the old stories, antique, anonymous and trying, everyone a letter instead of a name, places expressed as an initial and an em dash. <i>Off to the sanitarium<\/i>, he cried! <\/p>\n<p>After: I sat crumpled in the street where I had been dropped, left salty eyed blind and exhausted, my glasses on the hood of a stranger&#8217;s cold truck, too tired to stand, even as the the night evaporated as thoroughly as the warmth on my body where his hands had apologized and cradled me goodbye.<\/p>\n<p>So that, for now, is that. After a multitude of absences and various failure situations, he has decided that he is not currently capable of being responsible in regards to my un\/happiness and has withdrawn from my life. I do not know when he will return or in what state, but it is my hope, however small, however sad, that he will come home to me when he can.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Portal 2: Exile Vilify, a hidden song by The National Monday: It was just after midnight when he opened the door. In the interest of brevity, I will leave out the next three hours, excepting my desire to be wanted, kicked in like a knife, a piercing pain that has yet to fade. Suffice to &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/foxtongue.com\/dreampepper\/2011\/04\/24\/my-life-as-a-misery-ghost\/\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading<span class=\"screen-reader-text\"> &#8220;my life as a misery ghost&#8221;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[1296,1626,287,22,3,57,1682],"class_list":["post-3591","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized","tag-break-ups","tag-heartbreak","tag-misery","tag-music","tag-relationships","tag-sadness","tag-there-is-no-god"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/foxtongue.com\/dreampepper\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3591","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/foxtongue.com\/dreampepper\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/foxtongue.com\/dreampepper\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/foxtongue.com\/dreampepper\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/foxtongue.com\/dreampepper\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=3591"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/foxtongue.com\/dreampepper\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3591\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/foxtongue.com\/dreampepper\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=3591"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/foxtongue.com\/dreampepper\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=3591"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/foxtongue.com\/dreampepper\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=3591"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}