I found out second hand, when you cheated on the girl you were fucking behind my back. She came to me, crying,
\nand asked what she had done wrong.
\nShe didn’t know that we lived together, that you and I spelled a mutual m-i-n-e.
\nAll she knew was that I was her friend.
\nI considered the satisfaction of throwing your things out the window then,
\n the meticulous movie moment of exploding chaos, socks spiraling to the street, books flapping their pages like miraculous paper birds attempting futile flight.
\nI had your childhood pictures and birthday cards from your sister.
\nYour special keepsakes in a box you had brought with you all the way from Australia, all the way from when you were born.
\nPerhaps it would be raining, when I did this Hollywood thing, this burst of scripted anger.
\nEven in August, it rains here a lot.
\nYour letters would get wet and the ink run in the gutters. Your jeans would soak through and become too heavy to carry.
\nEnough water and you would have nothing left with to remember your mother.
\nI thought about these things, and the mess, and the shouting, wondering if it would be satisfying, if I would feel absolved from your crime,
\nand I whispered a statement to the empty room, claiming it, before saying it to her,
\nand somehow, to you, rich with disappointment, I am sorry.<\/i><\/p>\n
And now, once more, a drawer. What’s inside? This time I do not know. Clothes, a toothbrush perhaps. It is a mystery contained, hard-edged. A simple pull on the handle and the secret is out, but I do not want to look. The idea makes me flinch. It is terrible how small I am in your absence. <\/p>\n
I do not wish to be reminded, nor read again the topography of your things.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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