{"id":2034,"date":"2007-01-14T01:09:00","date_gmt":"2007-01-14T01:09:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/foxtongue.com\/dreampepper\/2007\/01\/14\/i-still-think-that-maybe-i-should-leave-go-to-the-club-try-to-wake-up-closer-to-my-own-bed\/"},"modified":"2007-01-14T01:09:00","modified_gmt":"2007-01-14T01:09:00","slug":"i-still-think-that-maybe-i-should-leave-go-to-the-club-try-to-wake-up-closer-to-my-own-bed","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/foxtongue.com\/dreampepper\/2007\/01\/14\/i-still-think-that-maybe-i-should-leave-go-to-the-club-try-to-wake-up-closer-to-my-own-bed\/","title":{"rendered":"I still think that maybe I should leave, go to the club, try to wake up closer to my own bed"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><i>Frank Warren of the cult <a href=\"http:\/\/postsecret.blogspot.com\">PostSecret<\/a> answers 20 Questions: &#8220;<a href=\"http:\/\/www.quirkee.com\/interviews\/20-questions\/20-questions-with-frank-warren.html\">For me this was a great surprise. How courage can be more important than talent or technique in creating meaningful art.<\/a>&#8220;<\/i><\/p>\n<p>When I shut the door behind me and glanced at the photographs lining the wall, it struck me that once I was going to live here. Cream walls, a white picket fence in pencil. He called, &#8220;When you&#8217;re done, can you come help me with something?&#8221; The music was comfortable, perfect. I surprised myself by replying, &#8220;You&#8217;d better be naked,&#8221; as I took the stairs two at a time. His smile at his computer screen made me remember why this was going to be my home, what I gave up when plans changed. Strange to love him still, at a distance. I still want to cut a labyrinth into his short cat-fur hair, but the desire to lean into him is gone. We never kept each other awake enough and I could never bear to hurt him again, not in the slightest thing.<\/p>\n<p>Cold outside, I&#8217;m not wearing clothes sensible enough. The plan was to go dancing after the movie, but something else happened. A language was spoken under language, the same that hooked me almost home to that other apartment, the one where I still know where everything is. My mother tongue, it echoes.<\/p>\n<p><b>Heart of the World seems to have bought an extension. I do not know how long a one yet, I will find out early on Monday morning, luckily before the CBC TV interview.<\/b><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Frank Warren of the cult PostSecret answers 20 Questions: &#8220;For me this was a great surprise. How courage can be more important than talent or technique in creating meaningful art.&#8220; When I shut the door behind me and glanced at the photographs lining the wall, it struck me that once I was going to live &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/foxtongue.com\/dreampepper\/2007\/01\/14\/i-still-think-that-maybe-i-should-leave-go-to-the-club-try-to-wake-up-closer-to-my-own-bed\/\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading<span class=\"screen-reader-text\"> &#8220;I still think that maybe I should leave, go to the club, try to wake up closer to my own bed&#8221;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[259,935,980,383],"class_list":["post-2034","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized","tag-alastair","tag-heart-of-the-world","tag-magnus","tag-postsecret"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/foxtongue.com\/dreampepper\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2034","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/foxtongue.com\/dreampepper\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/foxtongue.com\/dreampepper\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/foxtongue.com\/dreampepper\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/foxtongue.com\/dreampepper\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=2034"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/foxtongue.com\/dreampepper\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2034\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/foxtongue.com\/dreampepper\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=2034"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/foxtongue.com\/dreampepper\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=2034"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/foxtongue.com\/dreampepper\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=2034"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}