{"id":1645,"date":"2005-10-28T13:05:00","date_gmt":"2005-10-28T13:05:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/foxtongue.com\/dreampepper\/2005\/10\/28\/sway-me-now-when-andrew-said-he-saw-the-car-i-thought-something-else\/"},"modified":"2005-10-28T13:05:00","modified_gmt":"2005-10-28T13:05:00","slug":"sway-me-now-when-andrew-said-he-saw-the-car-i-thought-something-else","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/foxtongue.com\/dreampepper\/2005\/10\/28\/sway-me-now-when-andrew-said-he-saw-the-car-i-thought-something-else\/","title":{"rendered":"sway me now, when andrew said he saw the car, I thought something else"},"content":{"rendered":"
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My mind began kindly to me then slipped into exhaustion<\/a>. By the time I was in bed, all my thoughts were old. I should have called up Brian and had him fetch me over. It occurred to me, he would have banished my bad percussion nightmares. What’s good for me, I’m barely doing it these days. I hold out my hands to all the people who can’t quite help, and expect the rest of me to simply deal with it, forgetting that my reserves have almost entirely been used up. I think of running through a neighborhood, I think no, that place isn’t mine anymore. I don’t have a place anymore. My second home’s been closed to me<\/a>. <\/p>\n

I ran into Bill on my way to Dominique<\/a>‘s Ghost Train<\/a> evening. He still doesn’t know what to do with me. Jacques says after the baby is born, he’ll be able to deal with me as a human being again. I only know I could feel his bones through his coat like he was stuffed with sticks held together with fluid grace and days that stretch too long. Scraping himself thinner<\/a>. Dominique and I talked about him later. She pinned him down with one word as if he were a particularly large butterfly. Elemental, she said, and I replied, he is a forest. I’m glad she knew him, she understands. In three years, no one else had a chance. <\/p>\n

I’m dressed as a witch today, all flowing black and glitter. Work allows me costumes this week, so I’m taking advantage of it by dressing like myself instead of a vague corporate whore approximation. Customers have been asking where to buy my out-fits, which would amuse me if they were perhaps a little more polite about it. It’s full time hours this week, because of Hallowe’en. Long shifts of not having a chance to take away sandwiches from across the street. I want to fall down at the end of it, take my shoes off and walk barefoot in some rain. I want to find myself a warm and willing partner to sip hot chocolate with and look out over our little bit of sea. <\/p>\n

Mirrormask is playing here this weekend at TinselTown<\/a>. I hear of a group trip today at two o’clock, which is when I start my shift. The only weekend showing I can manage is the nine:thirty. Is anyone interested? I’m considering dropping in on it before the Saturday Clubhouse Party. I’d get there unpardonably late, if I could but care.<\/p>\n

Before I finally fell asleep, I lie in the dark alone for awhile while Ryan and Eva<\/a> were in the livingroom, trying to pretend that I had my bed to myself, (excepting the ferret I had lodged in my belly). But for the five days he was at DragonCon, Ryan<\/a>‘s been with me every day for almost three months. The feeling was alien, as if stretching out was a transgression against the basic nature of the world.
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