{"id":1542,"date":"2005-07-22T01:35:00","date_gmt":"2005-07-22T01:35:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/foxtongue.com\/dreampepper\/2005\/07\/22\/priorities-suffering-this-is-a-repeat\/"},"modified":"2005-07-22T01:35:00","modified_gmt":"2005-07-22T01:35:00","slug":"priorities-suffering-this-is-a-repeat","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/foxtongue.com\/dreampepper\/2005\/07\/22\/priorities-suffering-this-is-a-repeat\/","title":{"rendered":"priorities suffering (this is a repeat)"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"http:\/\/s4.yousendit.com\/d.aspx?id=2Q779BZMD3IQT299QV0SZMBFPT\">I&#8217;m worn.<\/a> <\/p>\n<p>I lost a job today. One I needed for well being more than anything fiscal. They were kind there, and laughed. Instead I will be setting the sky on fire. Taking wires and powders and alchemy. One night crying with chemicals in the dark where no will see me but they&#8217;ll see what I make.. Part of me knows I&#8217;ll think of you when I press the silver button. I&#8217;ll blame it on your pictures and where you live.  If I&#8217;m lucky, I won&#8217;t say your name. It&#8217;s been a hard year and I can&#8217;t forget your eyes. Every time someone puts their hand to mine, I remember yours, fresh in my mind. How the tips only just overlapped yours, how my fingers were slightly longer in relation to my palm. Then I remember kisses and I have to close my eyes. I tried to put together something for you tonight, I needed a distraction, something to bring myself out of how hurt I&#8217;m living, but weariness took over, and now I&#8217;m writing this letter instead. <\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;m not sure why. <font color=\"gray\">I think it&#8217;s a survival reflex, hoping to break the silence.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I&#8217;m worn. I lost a job today. One I needed for well being more than anything fiscal. They were kind there, and laughed. Instead I will be setting the sky on fire. Taking wires and powders and alchemy. One night crying with chemicals in the dark where no will see me but they&#8217;ll see what &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/foxtongue.com\/dreampepper\/2005\/07\/22\/priorities-suffering-this-is-a-repeat\/\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading<span class=\"screen-reader-text\"> &#8220;priorities suffering (this is a repeat)&#8221;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[23,8,10,57],"class_list":["post-1542","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized","tag-employment","tag-love","tag-loveletters","tag-sadness"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/foxtongue.com\/dreampepper\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1542","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/foxtongue.com\/dreampepper\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/foxtongue.com\/dreampepper\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/foxtongue.com\/dreampepper\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/foxtongue.com\/dreampepper\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1542"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/foxtongue.com\/dreampepper\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1542\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/foxtongue.com\/dreampepper\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1542"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/foxtongue.com\/dreampepper\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1542"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/foxtongue.com\/dreampepper\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1542"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}