{"id":1229,"date":"2005-02-14T23:18:00","date_gmt":"2005-02-14T23:18:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/foxtongue.com\/dreampepper\/2005\/02\/14\/unworthy\/"},"modified":"2005-02-14T23:18:00","modified_gmt":"2005-02-14T23:18:00","slug":"unworthy","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/foxtongue.com\/dreampepper\/2005\/02\/14\/unworthy\/","title":{"rendered":"unworthy"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><i>It only takes a chance encounter for the world to blossom again. Ten words, two eyebrows raised, one phone number. Close your eyes and remember the last time you met a stranger who later became your friend, your lover, a partner in life. It&#8217;s so simple to create interaction, to caress a minute into meaning something. I want to find a metaphor for my entanglements, an image to describe how everyone connects. I used to be able to trace people back to one night of the year 2000, but it grew exponentially. I know your friends before you do now. I can introduce you to your future roommate&#8217;s girlfriend, though we don&#8217;t know it yet. It&#8217;s a small city and I make it smaller every day.<\/i>  <\/p>\n<p>There was a sound, that&#8217;s how I woke. A romantic comedy moment of The Girl digging under a pile of coverlets for The Phone, Ringing. I was a moment too late, answering to a dial tone. I could take that as my cue to begin my day but I was too tired for whatever hour my clock would show me if I put my glasses on, so I didn&#8217;t bother. When the phone rang again, I considered my options then answered it in spite of them. It was <a href=\"http:\/\/www.livejournal.com\/~mgoodbar\">Matthew<\/a> laying dibs on my day. As no-one else wanted them, I said, he was more than free to them. After hanging up, I swayed uncertainly on my feet in the late morning light and tried to sum how many hours of sleep I had accumulated since my eight a.m. bedtime. I figured not-enough while brushing teeth, unlocked the door, and went back to bed. Matthew can let himself in, I thought, then the buzzer rang. There was a delivery man with a large package on the other side of the door. &#8220;Are you Jhayne?&#8221; He didn&#8217;t ask for ID or confirmation, just looked me over as I stood sleepily in a shawl and my underwear and abruptly handed me the parcel before turning and leaving. It was surprisingly heavy, five pounds of mystery carefully wrapped in brown paper with <a href=\"http:\/\/www.livejournal.com\/~michel_lacombe\">Michel<\/a>&#8216;s name and address written so tiny in the upper left corner that I felt somehow like they were hiding. <\/p>\n<p>I stood in my bedroom and looked at the package, turning it over in my hands. I fetched my knife from the shelf, but hesitated. Instead I lay the two items on my bed and contemplated what might be inside. It&#8217;s a book, I know that much, but what book? This has the weight of endearment and responsibility. What could be so heavy? I sat at my computer, intending to send him an e-mail before I sliced open the time-bomb, but as I raised my hands to the keys, I heard footsteps in the hall. Matthew arriving in time for the cliffhanger. <\/p>\n<p><a href=\"http:\/\/www.nbmpub.com\/comicslit\/mckean\/cagehome.html\">CAGES by Dave McKean.<\/a><\/p>\n<p>I was torn between awe and a very carefully repressed acrimony. Inside was a long intelligent letter written on story-boarding paper, with no explanation as to why I had been sent the book, but a long monologue on a computer game I remember having myself, sometime back in the 80&#8217;s, where the player is to collect resources, one of which is beautiful young women. Thoughts flit through my mind of sending the book back after I&#8217;m finished reading it twice, but I feel somehow that would be absurd. I&#8217;ve barely flipped through it, almost certain there must be some mistake. It&#8217;s too beautiful. Heavy enough to be a murder weapon, it&#8217;s a work of art. <a href=\"http:\/\/www.livejournal.com\/~jelymo\">Jessie<\/a> and I have been sleuthing it. The ISBN put me at ease, as I was finding entries through Google which told of Limited Edition One Run Printings. This may be a trick, a lure to bait me into traveling cross country to fall futile at the feet of a comic artist. I can&#8217;t bear-hug kill a man long distance. Not yet.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>It only takes a chance encounter for the world to blossom again. Ten words, two eyebrows raised, one phone number. Close your eyes and remember the last time you met a stranger who later became your friend, your lover, a partner in life. 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